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Just Trust Me

Rae — Fri, 04 Jun 2010 12:14:07 +0000

Just Trust Me

Over time your soul winged into the dark

And your past experiences have left a mark

But know, it is in Me that you can confide

Just trust Me, I will calm the storm inside

You’ve learned not to dream of better days

And closed off your heart in so many ways

But all the pieces have been there forever

Just trust Me, I will put them back together

I could see the philosophy as it did begin

Stand strong against all who try to come in

I’m saying it’s okay to bring down the wall

Just trust Me, I’ll catch you when you fall

Gather your burdens, put them in My hand

And I promise, I will help you to understand

I tell you this, I feel that you need to know

Just trust Me, because I’ll never let you go

I know you’re questioning all that’s been

And not understanding all that you’ve seen

I promise someday I will explain it all to you

Just trust Me, I can see that you want to

So please just let me take away your fears

And please allow me to wipe away your tears

Open your heart and I’ll show you the way

Just trust Me, I am here with you everyday

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Have Faith in Me

Rae — Fri, 04 Jun 2010 12:11:33 +0000

This healing journey has begun

As you learn we will cry as one

The burdens you carry give to me

My desire is for you to be free

I will restore your broken soul

So once again you can be whole

Allow me in so you can be healed

If you let me I will be your shield

No matter what I will never leave

And side by side we shall grieve

I wish for you to be able to know

That there is nothing you do owe

Know what I’m able to see in you

Know I’ll be there in all that you do

Leave the places that you’ve been

You have a new journey to begin

Have faith in me as we unfold

A bright new life to behold

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All That Is Seen

Rae — Fri, 26 Mar 2010 03:53:08 +0000

Memories too stubborn to leave or last

Memories too stubborn to leave or last

And days that were kind enough to pass

Now our looking glass is stained and broken

And so many lies are still being spoken

By the untrusting ghosts of our past

All while lacking the comprehension

Failures seemed to get all the attention

Self-worth deteriorates and is almost gone

Due to false conclusions being drawn

And our strong powers of retention

We try to learn where the line does lie

It’s hard to find but we continue to try

When it’s found it’s sometimes too late

Then we’re supposed to accept our fate

Instead we attempt to turn a blind eye

Energy is wasted wanting to settle scores

And all that remains are scarred doors

Battles are fought with shame-based rage

But from these fights that we do wage

More spoils remain from internal wars

We learn contempt increases vulnerability

And that emotion obscures our visibility

We want to put off the future for a day

And we’re wishing the past would not stay

But have learned that it’s an impossibility

All that is seen is seen upside down

Burden’s carried drag to the ground

Tears fall in ashes of chances burned

The day ends dismissing what’s learned

While losing sight of the thorny crown

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The Love of God

Rae — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 21:54:32 +0000

*** This is a wonderful song that I recently came across that was written by Frederick M. Lehman. ***

The love of God is greater far
Than tongue or pen can ever tell;
It goes beyond the highest star,
And reaches to the lowest hell;
The guilty pair, bowed down with care,
God gave His Son to win;
His erring child He reconciled,
And pardoned from his sin.

O love of God, how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore endure
The saints’ and angels’ song.

When years of time shall pass away,
And earthly thrones and kingdoms fall,
When men, who here refuse to pray,
On rocks and hills and mountains call,
God’s love so sure, shall still endure,
All measureless and strong;
Redeeming grace to Adam’s race—
The saints’ and angels’ song.

O love of God, how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore endure
The saints’ and angels’ song.

Could we with ink the ocean fill,
And were the skies of parchment made,
Were every stalk on earth a quill,
And every man a scribe by trade,
To write the love of God above,
Would drain the ocean dry.
Nor could the scroll contain the whole,
Though stretched from sky to sky.

O love of God, how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore endure
The saints’ and angels’ song.

This Tiny Little Room

Rae — Tue, 29 Sep 2009 18:48:33 +0000

As my eyes explore this tiny little room

I start to ponder what’s been spoken here

What unimagineable stories it must know

And the secrets that these walls hold dear

All the memories that’ve passed our lips

In this safe place where we can reveal

Many of the stories from our broken pasts

And words about the shame that we feel

It is where countless tears have fallen

And where more truth has been shared

Which has brought about hard lessons

With many regrets also being declared

We talk of the hours that we’ve misspent

With those who’ve brought us much pain

Instead of loving ones we were needed by

And from whom we had much more to gain

We go back and revisit the times now past

A better understanding we wish to achieve

Not knowing how hard our path will be

When it challenges everything we believe

I’m not the only one who’s struggled here

In this place where many of us have come

To uload all the burdens that we’ve carried

And to discover what we can now become

It’s in this place that we now start to grow
Because here most of us have had to learn
We are not at all who we were taught to be
And some bridges are better left to burn

Now what I do see in this tiny little room

Are the ones who’ve earned great respect

Ones who deserve to always be honored

And who God blesses and will always protect

God…Are You There?

Rae — Mon, 28 Sep 2009 01:57:05 +0000

*** This is a poem that I had read during a prayer circle that was being held at a church I sometimes attend. I felt that I could relate to it a little bit. ***

God…

Are you there?

I’ve been taught,

And told I ought to pray

But the doubt won’t go away;

Yet neither will my longing to

Be heard.

My soul sighs to deep for words.

Do you hear me?

God…are you there?

Are you where love is?

I don’t love well, or often, anything, or anyone.

But when I do, when I take the risk,

There’s a sudden awareness of all I’ve missed;

And it is good.

It’s singing good.

For a moment life seems as it should.

But, soon I forget, so busy soon,

That it was, or what, or whom.

- Ted Loder

The Courage to Let You Lead

Rae — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 20:13:31 +0000

It would have taken just a glance

To see what you’ve wanted me to

But I chose to look the other way

That’s what I was instructed to do

And it’s taken time to understand

That what I’ve learned was not true

Now I know you’ve always stayed

And you knew where I did belong

But I kept pushing you to the wall

Insisting that I write my own song

Never having the understanding

That it had been written all along

I couldn’t see the path that I was on

And just where it was going to lead

But always faithful you have stood

And never once did you conceive

You know how much I’ve resisted

But it’s in my return you did believe

Now I’m standing here before you

Feeling broken and blinded by pain

I don’t quite know just what to do

Yet, somehow I am glad that I came

I know you see that I’m still hesitant

But, I see you love me just the same

Now God, I’m asking for your patience

It’s something that I desperately need

And I’d like to thank you for your love

As I continue to learn how to proceed

And I do hope that sometime soon

I will find the courage to let you lead

The Power of the Gospel

Rae — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 00:02:48 +0000

*** This is a post from the Session Notes link that is on this website. ***

http://www.henze-associates.com/blog/2009/08/02/cal/the-power-of-the-gospel/

The power of Eternality:

The man/woman who stands with no fear of death is the most dangerous being alive. The entirety of the system of this world rides on the ability to take a life from another. When death ceases to terrify, control is lost.

The power of Absolution:

This world — especially the Christian side of it — stands in the constant fear of guilt. It stands with heads hung in shame while playing roles designed to prove to those who hold this weeks rating scale that they do, indeed, measure up. The teachings of Jesus have been so bastardized and bent by the keepers of religious power that it actually seems reasonable when that-which-formerly-was is again brought as a means of enforcing the awareness of our guiltiness and pinned on Jesus. But, we didn’t get a Bandaid for our sins — we, with Christ, died to them — and were raised to a new life that doesn’t relate to them. Our heads can never again hang low — because the standard which judged us (The law) can never again condemn us — no matter what.

The power of Love:

So many people live in the fear that if they ever gave God control of their lives, He’d bring out massive pain and torment (and a few plagues from Egypt too) to finally hurt them enough to change them. Yet, Jesus made it very clear that to see His heart was to see the Father. It’s a heart that will never lead through shame, fear, guilt, condemnation, coercion, punishment, torment or wrath. It’s a gentle heart that works quietly inside — when we are ready — to call us to life.

The power of Life:

Almost every aspect of our world is focused upon dying. We have drugs — they keep us emotionally dead. We have TV and entertainment to keep us distracted until we die. We have disassociative meditative techniques that are used to attain the peace of the grave while living. We run from shame, fear, guilt and the paralysis that comes from feeling trapped and bound and this drives that seeking of death. Through canceling all of that, the Gospel not only reawakens the desire to live, it legitimated the call to live and unlocked the creative energy to drive such.

The power of Freedom:

Wanna know why our bricks and mortar churches are emptying by the droves? People heard that Jesus came to set them free — and something deep within them intuitively knows that a list of rules isn’t what He had in mind. The message of the Gospel isn’t less rules — it’s TOTAL freedom. “When a man finally grasps grace, he suddenly finds himself standing, naked and trembling, in such a wide open space that he can do naught else but reach up for a hand to hold — for a guide to lead him through.”Anon

The power of Intimacy:

We can reach up for that hand to hold and that guide who will lead us through. It’s safe now. The cross is critical to this for it proved that not only is God good — but it proved that who He is IS GOOD. The human race unleashed the very worst it had to offer on the one being in the universe who could have annihilated them with a thought — and He loved them so much He let them kill Him and then came back to love them even more. To love ME even more…

The power of Faith:

Faith isn’t belief — faith is Christ in you, the hope of Glory. The Christian life has nothing to do with trying harder or trying period. It’s about surrender to that new life which has been created in you to enough of a degree that you can stop trying and literally get the hell out of the way. It’s about a surrender to a wisdom so much greater then our own that the foundations of this sick and corrupt system of control we call life begin to get blown up — not just for yourself, but also for those you love.

The power of Holy Anger:

Jesus made one thing very clear: He didn’t come to make nice — He came to start a war. The religious leaders of the day didn’t kill, “Gentle Jesus meek and mild.” They killed a guy who they could plainly see was destroying everything about their system of religious power — not trying to start the Progressive Conservative/Republican party. Then, He turned to the disenfranchised, the broken, the humiliated, the poor, the shameful, the powerless and promised them a power greater then the world had ever seen — just before he invited them to join up and open fire.

The power of Humanness:

Look around the world — every major religion out there sees human beings as basically screwed up and disgusting. It then offers it’s prescription to fix them — if people will only tow their line. The Gospel sees people as made in the image of God and, though once broken, as currently perfect without them doing anything to fix themselves. (That’s God’s job.) He came not to destroy them — but to reverse that which was broken about them once and for all. He came to make them fully human and fully alive.

The power of Transformation:

The foundational job of the gospel is to tear back the veils that keep people from seeing the beauty and dignity of the current reality of their lives. Read that again — not to fix people, for that job is already done. The primary weapon we are given is truth — the ability to tear back the lies that have the ones we love trapped in a set of falsehoods that reduce them to that which formerly was (dead) and drive them towards a set of broken strategies which will never fulfill the deepest longings of their hearts.

The power of Passion:

The magical core of the Gospel is the call to the deepest desires of our hearts. If God made those hearts and planted those deep longings within them, then those deep longings have to be His will for our lives. All of the above was NOT done because God wants to finally get you to the point of being a well-trained-seal who will do some religious dance when told. He did all of the above so you could finally reach inside and discover that deepest place of your heart where He planted the vision He created for you to become — and then full-tilt LIVE IT OUT.

The Gospel is not seen in ethics. The Gospel is first seen when a human heart, transformed so that it both is able to hear the voice of God and longs to do so, begins to reach out for the hand of a loving father and, when finding that hand, begins to take the risk to step out and live.

The Gospel achieves it’s true 10,000 candle-power brilliance when that heart reaches out and loves, it stops and cries, it gives to another, it stands in defiance of the night, it attacks with fury, it rescues the broken, it binds up the wounded, it touches that paintbrush to canvas, it places finger to string or key, it speaks with fire and precision, it screams with the fury of Almighty God at the thought of one of His precious children living with even one chain, it kisses with passion and then it makes love with with all of the erotic intensity that only a heart set free can even risk.

It’s the captivating and irresistible master plan of liberty the God of the universe, exploding out of the passionate longings of His heart, wrote for you.

- Cal H. Henze www.henze-associates.com

I AM

Rae — Sat, 08 Aug 2009 15:40:48 +0000

** This poem was not written by me, it was written by a friend of mine who could see me struggling. I got permission to post it because it was just too beautiful to not be shared. **

I AM

My yoke is easy and my burden is light,

Come, dear daughter, give up the fight.

Receive my grace, sufficient for you,

In all you say, think, hear and do.

Surrender your struggles and hear what I say,

I have always been with you, every step of the way.

When you feel like you’re lost and like life is all wrong,

Listen, hear how I sing over you with My tender song.

For you are my precious one, unique to my heart,

Still yourself, let go, I will give you a new start.

I will never forsake you, nor leave you my love,

My care for you is tender and gentle as a dove.

Life’s journey is tough and the road may seem long,

The troubles life brings may all seem wrong.

Though struggles are difficult, the road sometimes fearful,

Listen to me, and I will give you an earful.

You are more precious than silver, more beautiful than gold,

Your longings, dreams and desires in My hand I hold,

I long to show you how My ways are sure,

And with my redemption, you are so pure.

Surrender your fears, guilt, shame, and follow Me

Take my Hand, trust Me, there is so much to see.

I will never forsake you, never let you go,

My Spirit will guide you, My promises you know.

So as you continue your journey, will you trust in Me?

Will you rest in My comfort, and let Me set you free?

Will you surrender yourself to accept my healing?

Can you believe that I know exactly how you are feeling?

Will you trust in My presence, know I will never leave you?

Will you rest your turmoil in My arms as they enfold you?

Will you lay down your burdens and follow my lead?

Will you let me be your friend and give me your need?

For I am mighty in strength and I long to uphold you,

My burdens are light and my glory enfolds you,

My promises include a magnificent plan,

For, my love , my name is I AM.

Free Grace

Rae — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 16:28:34 +0000

From our hearts, pain has poured

As our stories have gotten explored

Now we’ve begun to move toward

Grace that God does freely award

And we see all that He can afford

His love will never again be ignored

We are all beautiful compilations

A magnificent blend of His creations

But despite all of our complications

He delivers us from the temptations

Provides us with strong foundations

He comes to fulfill our expectations

Now and again our road will be long

With Him at our side, we are strong

Belief in Him can never be wrong

It is in His hands that we do belong

As He teaches us our new song

For He is a friend that is lifelong

From the beginning He heard our plea

We have now learned He is the key

And now we pray on bended knee

So that we may never forget to see

This Grace that He has given for free

And honor Him with all we can be

Where To Start

Rae — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 15:39:36 +0000

Where is it that we are to start

When we know we can’t stay here

An unsought journey back in time

Where we usually try not to steer

Do we fear what we will unearth

As we dig through what’s been done

What can we learn from our mistakes

As we sort through them one by one

We tell lies with the intent to hide

Resolute to keep it all concealed

We try to evade the inquisitive ones

And keep our secrets unrevealed

We commence with apprehension

But recognize that new is needed

That some matters ought to diverge

And new advice should be heeded

When truth comes to show its face

In which position will we remain

Will we embrace what we now know

Or will we resist what we ascertain

We stumble with much reluctance

Quite frequently we seem to falter

But our resistance begins to dissolve

And we see what we need to alter

When we accept it’s time to change

And wish to find what we need to see

Will we ask Jesus to be our guide

And lead our heart where it needs to be

Increasing Love

Rae — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 15:13:28 +0000

It is in despair that we have woken

With shattered bits that are a token

Small reminders that we are broken

Mend our heart is what we’ve spoken

Lessons learned have made us wary

So that our dreams appear to be airy

Many memories we still try to bury

But a desire to forgive we do carry

We hang on to many an ancient feud

One of the faults that we have accrued

And other sins that we should include

Despite them all, can we be renewed

Have we come to a point of no return

From moving in life without concern

From all our choices what did we earn

To be pardoned is what we do yearn

Throughout our lives we did portray

And now on bended knees we pray

That God will help us find our way

Our doubt and fear slowly fade away

The anger, guilt, and shame decreases

We will leave them all in little pieces

Our time comes and the pain releases

Deep in our heart the love increases