Poemae Qui Aperio » Forgiveness

Desire to Remit

Rae — Tue, 16 Jun 2009 21:31:38 +0000

The questions just keep right on coming

But the answers never seem to bring a cure

Sometimes I think that I should stop asking

I am not sure how much more I can endure

The resentfulness still hangs on so heavily

Its grip sometimes brings me to my knees

My fighting seems useless against its hold

And it continues to make it hard to breathe

Going back has created so much confusion

And I get caught up in my cynical despair

I’m lost in acknowledging all my failures

It is all more than any part of me can bear

It feels like I’m the only one saying sorry

For something that I wasn’t responsible for

And I’m getting tired of picking myself up

Too many tears have been cried on this floor

However it is much easier said than done

To let go of all the fears embedded so deep

Or to change all of the ways I’ve created

To keep my dreams and desires fast asleep

I watch the illusions as they start to die

It’s uncomfortable and I’m feeling unnerved

But I see as things start to become clearer

What I’ve missed and what I’ve deserved

I must re-teach my heart how to let go

I know that its walls will be hard to split

But I’m sure I can persuade it to come out

And then bring back its desire to remit

False Assumptions

Rae — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 15:35:19 +0000

True feelings remain all hidden

Glossed over or unexposed

To drop it all and walk away

My heart seems unopposed

In all of your violations

Your demeanor I do not judge

I see all that it has to cover

And I must not hold a grudge

I just can’t seem to show you

The burdens that you create

Lost to any acknowledgement

You seem to bear no weight

Actions laced with pretense

You have stolen my desire

I give in to all the confusion

And dismiss what I require

Are reasons right to confront

And self-importance left behind

I do not know where to begin

To induce a change of mind

My mind thinks of separation

My heart wants something more

The yearnings of engagement

It seems I am unable to ignore

A required call for forgiveness

That has come to be revealed

A tugging deep within my heart

That refuses to remain concealed

To leave behind all my yearnings

And let my desires become deceased

Is filled with false assumptions

That my struggles would be released

Increasing Love

Rae — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 15:13:28 +0000

It is in despair that we have woken

With shattered bits that are a token

Small reminders that we are broken

Mend our heart is what we’ve spoken

Lessons learned have made us wary

So that our dreams appear to be airy

Many memories we still try to bury

But a desire to forgive we do carry

We hang on to many an ancient feud

One of the faults that we have accrued

And other sins that we should include

Despite them all, can we be renewed

Have we come to a point of no return

From moving in life without concern

From all our choices what did we earn

To be pardoned is what we do yearn

Throughout our lives we did portray

And now on bended knees we pray

That God will help us find our way

Our doubt and fear slowly fade away

The anger, guilt, and shame decreases

We will leave them all in little pieces

Our time comes and the pain releases

Deep in our heart the love increases