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Shadows of Your Offenses

on June 8th, 2010 by Rae

I’ve learned that the dice were loaded for me

It seems to have made the road more tough

And I continue to be blinded by all that I see

The explanations it seems are never enough

I still can’t make out what this picture will be

Even though I’ve connected many of the dots

I’ve searched for so long to try and find a key

And I’ve been unraveling so many of the knots

There’s a difference in the way you needed me

And the way that I needed you way back then

It’s the way that you needed that has made me

Not want to remember and feel that way again

I’ve spent my life with an abscense of dignity

Thinking I’ll crash and burn if I follow my heart

Believing everything in life to be untrustworthy

And that there was no way that I could impart

In these shackles I’ve worn there’s a familiarity

But from inside this castle that’s made of glass

What I consider to be normal might be insanity

And longings and memories continue to harass

It’s not lies, it’s myths that are truth’s enemy

They’ve kept me from standing up to my fears

Now this obsessive avoidance does control me

But I’m tired of the flow of these anxious tears

Now my head and heart are beginning to agree

That from this contempt there is nothing to gain

Yet I refuse to let go and hold on to it faithfully

It is my attack on the perceived cause of pain

But now I’ve met my overdeveloped deniability

I’m tired of life in the shadows of your offenses

Now I want to figure out how to fight to be free

I want to learn how to bring down these fences