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Not Wanting Anyone to Want Me

on April 15th, 2010 by Rae

I’ve tried to make known what my scars have to say

As they have become harder and harder to hide

But things get much more difficult to convey

And then there are details I just can’t provide

I’ve been struggling to pick up pieces of my mind

And have been scrambling from who I used to be

Trying to figure out what it is that I need to find

Because I am desperate to realize my true identity

My way I was taught would never come about

So I tried to offer what I believed to be wanted

But no matter what I did I still went without

Leaving a soul that is now distant and haunted

So then one day I made myself this guarantee

Building of barriers around my heart did begin

I’ll never give anyone the best of what’s in me

And I won’t let anyone peel away all of my skin

Take cues from the pain is what I’ve learned

And you can never hide your heart deep enough

You don’t have to play with fire to get burned

And sooner or later everyone will play rough

Now I can’t make my mind picture what could be

Lately all it seems to be able to do is reminisce

And now I’m stuck not wanting anyone to want me

Because I expect heartache even before the first kiss

| Posted in Heart & Soul, Pain & Sorrow