on April 13th, 2010 by Rae
Open Book What does it really mean To become an open book To put everything out there So anyone can take a look
It is hard for me to ideate Or then even try to relate When I have no intention Of making a declaration
I don’t feel like I’ll be free For there is no guarantee That life will not fall apart If I was to reveal my heart
It seems reckless to assume That judgment will not loom And I will feel more alone Then before I’d made known
Nothing will be the same All things covered in shame I think it’s better left unsaid And leave this book unread
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Hi I struggle with this a lot. But I’ve decided to take the risk, more and more. Maybe there’s less shame with more openness, I don’t know, but it has been healing for me.
A link to some of my blog postings where I’ve opened up: http://www.bignoise-enterprises.com/blog/?cat=310
This has been a constant battle for me and I think it always will be. Thanks so much for sharing your link, I visit your website often. I admire the courage it has taken for you to share some of your past – they are such difficult steps to take.
That whole concept of freedom seems so costly …like stripping down and standing naked for all to see. And yet the cost of staying in bondage is also costly, wearing a mask to keep hidden the true beautiful self, all in the effort of minimizing exposure and pain. I, too would rather stay clothed, and retreat into the silent recesses of myself, yet that freedom voice lures me and will not leave me alone.
There’s going to be at least one more installment in my “Force Fed” series guys…and one of them is going to be even harder to write..about the early years, pre-foster care. Why though do I feel such shame over something I had no control over?
I think though that who we choose to expose ourselves to, so to speak, is super-critical. I say that despite the fact that my ’stuff’ is on the internet for all to read….